Obviously, been a bit busy with Japan and all (the blog is totally up and running. :D). I haven't been able to use calorie count because 90% of the time I don't know what the food I'm eating is actually called. But! Everything in this country has calories on it. On the menus, on the packaging, everywhere. You can't hide from it. So I've been doing it the old school way of just keeping a spread sheet.
I'm trying to get a running route and I ran it once, but I've been so busy that I haven't been able to do much but eat. Next week should be more stable.
Hope everyone is doing well!
The Countdown
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
H&M response
I was tired last night and just wanted to share the news, but I actually wanted to make a post. :)
I'm all about following the scale. I'm not focusing on weight lifting like I should, so I'm not gaining any real muscle, so I have no reason not to trust the scale when tracking my progress. However. I have just gotten below 211 (at 209 now) and I was at this point a few months ago in the summer. However, my size was still able to change.
During the summer, I wore an 18/19 or 17/16 (juniors) and, while not cutting off circulation, they were snug. Now I can fit my leg and my arm in the pants leg of a 17/16. I just bought a 15/16 and they fit fine, and I can wear a 14 in regular women's stores. Even though I've gained and then went back to my original weight, I was able to lose some sizes.
I was able to go into stores yesterday and buy things. I went to a store and was able to buy an XL shirt without thinking about it(I had previously bought from the store, so I knew my size). When I went into H&M, I was just looking around with my mom. She asked me to try on this sweater (turned out to be mega ugly) and I took in a shirt I was curious about. The highest they had in the store was a size twelve.
My hands were shaking!
When I try on clothes, I still get the shakes and my heart starts to race, because all I can think about is the clothes not fitting and me having to come out with that nervous smiled saying "...it doesn't fit" or lying and saying that it "didn't look right." Just the thought of me going, "...still have so far to go" makes me stomach turn.
But it fit.
And it wasn't a "...don't breathe...don't move..." sort of fit. It fit. At the H&M store, I can go in and buy a size 12.
Now, I can't go a buy a size twelve in many other stores, because sizing varies from place to place, but...I can go in those stores. I can go in those stores. I used to just glance at them 140 pounds ago, but I can actually go in, flip through the rack and buy something. It might be a 12 one day, a 14 the next, and a 16 the day after, but I can go into those stores.
I'm happy, because I've been able to see changes, even though the scale was barely moving. It's weird, because I've always said I wanted to be a size 10/12 and, for at least that store, it's here. I am that size.
I'm not stopping yet. I still want to get out of the 200's and at a minimum a healthy BMI (that would be in the 180's for me). That's something that excites me. Can I say that I feel sort of...Normal? Happy?
I don't feel defeated anymore. I'm going to Japan with my head held high. I may not be their size, but I worked hard to get where I am and I'm damn proud of it.
That is all. :)
I'm all about following the scale. I'm not focusing on weight lifting like I should, so I'm not gaining any real muscle, so I have no reason not to trust the scale when tracking my progress. However. I have just gotten below 211 (at 209 now) and I was at this point a few months ago in the summer. However, my size was still able to change.
During the summer, I wore an 18/19 or 17/16 (juniors) and, while not cutting off circulation, they were snug. Now I can fit my leg and my arm in the pants leg of a 17/16. I just bought a 15/16 and they fit fine, and I can wear a 14 in regular women's stores. Even though I've gained and then went back to my original weight, I was able to lose some sizes.
I was able to go into stores yesterday and buy things. I went to a store and was able to buy an XL shirt without thinking about it(I had previously bought from the store, so I knew my size). When I went into H&M, I was just looking around with my mom. She asked me to try on this sweater (turned out to be mega ugly) and I took in a shirt I was curious about. The highest they had in the store was a size twelve.
My hands were shaking!
When I try on clothes, I still get the shakes and my heart starts to race, because all I can think about is the clothes not fitting and me having to come out with that nervous smiled saying "...it doesn't fit" or lying and saying that it "didn't look right." Just the thought of me going, "...still have so far to go" makes me stomach turn.
But it fit.
And it wasn't a "...don't breathe...don't move..." sort of fit. It fit. At the H&M store, I can go in and buy a size 12.
Now, I can't go a buy a size twelve in many other stores, because sizing varies from place to place, but...I can go in those stores. I can go in those stores. I used to just glance at them 140 pounds ago, but I can actually go in, flip through the rack and buy something. It might be a 12 one day, a 14 the next, and a 16 the day after, but I can go into those stores.
I'm happy, because I've been able to see changes, even though the scale was barely moving. It's weird, because I've always said I wanted to be a size 10/12 and, for at least that store, it's here. I am that size.
I'm not stopping yet. I still want to get out of the 200's and at a minimum a healthy BMI (that would be in the 180's for me). That's something that excites me. Can I say that I feel sort of...Normal? Happy?
I don't feel defeated anymore. I'm going to Japan with my head held high. I may not be their size, but I worked hard to get where I am and I'm damn proud of it.
That is all. :)
Sunday, January 2, 2011
I went to H&M today.
I went to H&M today and tried on a size 12.
It fit.
I bought the shirt.
That is all.
It fit.
I bought the shirt.
That is all.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Unexpected Surpise + Blog
Side note: Guess who got all A's and on B? This chick. Cum Lade, here I come.
Well, I had something happen that showed me I have indeed lose weight. I have a messenger bag that I have just happened to not of worn around since Highschool (probably because it was full of junk). So, I decided to slip the bad boy on and noticed that it was too long. I was confused, because my first thought was, "...did I shrink..." Then it hit me: My strap seemed longer because my stomach was no longer in the way. My stomach's not poking out as far as it used to, so the strap seems longer. I was tickled.
This week has been "okay." I was alone for the holidays, but I did go out to see friends. There has been food (I ordered my first pizza. Did you know that a slice of sausage pizza from Papa Johns is 340 calories? Cause I didn't. Imagine the look on my face when I had two slices). I managed to work out. I did running up the stairs twice because I. Got. Bored. The gym at the apartment isn't the best. There's only one treadmill and a 30 minute time limit, the elliptical is gross and rusty, and there's only one working bike. The stairs seemed better. (And I was T.I.R.E.D.)
Also, I have officially set up my Japan travel blog. Only rule is to keep this blog and that blog separate. :) I don't want my family members trickling into here. I like keeping this sort of "private."
Link: http://japanspring2011.blogspot.com/
I hope you all had a wonderful holiday!
★Merry★* 。 • ˚ ˚ ˛ ˚ ˛ •
•。★Christmas★ 。* 。
° 。 ° ˛˚˛ * _Π_____*。*˚
˚ ˛ •˛•˚ */______/~＼。˚ ˚ ˛
˚ ˛ •˛• ˚ ｜ 田田 ｜門｜ ˚ ♥
Well, I had something happen that showed me I have indeed lose weight. I have a messenger bag that I have just happened to not of worn around since Highschool (probably because it was full of junk). So, I decided to slip the bad boy on and noticed that it was too long. I was confused, because my first thought was, "...did I shrink..." Then it hit me: My strap seemed longer because my stomach was no longer in the way. My stomach's not poking out as far as it used to, so the strap seems longer. I was tickled.
This week has been "okay." I was alone for the holidays, but I did go out to see friends. There has been food (I ordered my first pizza. Did you know that a slice of sausage pizza from Papa Johns is 340 calories? Cause I didn't. Imagine the look on my face when I had two slices). I managed to work out. I did running up the stairs twice because I. Got. Bored. The gym at the apartment isn't the best. There's only one treadmill and a 30 minute time limit, the elliptical is gross and rusty, and there's only one working bike. The stairs seemed better. (And I was T.I.R.E.D.)
Also, I have officially set up my Japan travel blog. Only rule is to keep this blog and that blog separate. :) I don't want my family members trickling into here. I like keeping this sort of "private."
Link: http://japanspring2011.blogspot.com/
I hope you all had a wonderful holiday!
★Merry★* 。 • ˚ ˚ ˛ ˚ ˛ •
•。★Christmas★ 。* 。
° 。 ° ˛˚˛ * _Π_____*。*˚
˚ ˛ •˛•˚ */______/~＼。˚ ˚ ˛
˚ ˛ •˛• ˚ ｜ 田田 ｜門｜ ˚ ♥
Friday, December 17, 2010
My last weigh-in before Japan
Today was it! My last weigh in with my school's help. I weighed in at 209! I was happy. That makes it 140 pounds lost so far. I think it's a good send off, don't you think?
I don't have a scale at home, and I don't know where the scales will be (if any) in Japan. I know they exist in Japan, but I certainly won't be buying on if one isn't provided. Because of that, any updates on this blog will be about trying to continue working out and food. Hope that's okay!
I don't have a scale at home, and I don't know where the scales will be (if any) in Japan. I know they exist in Japan, but I certainly won't be buying on if one isn't provided. Because of that, any updates on this blog will be about trying to continue working out and food. Hope that's okay!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
And it's over~
It's all done!
My first semester of junior is done. And three more weeks till my trip. Feels like it's been forever. Is it okay to say I'm excited? After all the paper work and drama (believe me, there was drama), I'm happy that, well...I'm going! To Japan, four months. I've been dreaming about this F-O-R-E-V-E-R. Fat or not, I'm excited!
However! I still need to try and lose some weight. It doesn't stop in Japan after all. I'm been staggering and tripping up, and for at least these last few weeks, I have to take it seriously. I mean, I have been taking it seriously, but I have to put in that last effort before I get on that plane.
I am happy though. I'm really happy that I am not going there at 349. I feel like I would be so much more self conscious than I already am (about height mostly. lol). Though I didn't meet my goal, 130+ is a lot. I'm pretty sure that's the size of one of my friends, and I'm happy to have her off my back.
I've been embarrassed that I've been teetering between the same weight since now and August, I'll admit. I left got on the plane 211, got of the plane at 220, and I'm typing now around 214-211 (yes, it wavers THAT much). I was upset, and I think I'll always be upset that I didn't get that golden number. But I did what I could. I didn't eat huge amounts of junk (hey, we all have our moments...) and I made it a habit to go to the gym (even on the last day of school.^_~ ). I'll just have to keep going and be happy with the body I was able to achieve. (I think I lost 40 pounds this year in total. That's pretty nifty!)
Let's give it that last try!
P.S. I'll be setting up the Japanese travel blog about...a week before I go, and I'll just leave the link in one of the post, so look sharp!
My first semester of junior is done. And three more weeks till my trip. Feels like it's been forever. Is it okay to say I'm excited? After all the paper work and drama (believe me, there was drama), I'm happy that, well...I'm going! To Japan, four months. I've been dreaming about this F-O-R-E-V-E-R. Fat or not, I'm excited!
However! I still need to try and lose some weight. It doesn't stop in Japan after all. I'm been staggering and tripping up, and for at least these last few weeks, I have to take it seriously. I mean, I have been taking it seriously, but I have to put in that last effort before I get on that plane.
I am happy though. I'm really happy that I am not going there at 349. I feel like I would be so much more self conscious than I already am (about height mostly. lol). Though I didn't meet my goal, 130+ is a lot. I'm pretty sure that's the size of one of my friends, and I'm happy to have her off my back.
I've been embarrassed that I've been teetering between the same weight since now and August, I'll admit. I left got on the plane 211, got of the plane at 220, and I'm typing now around 214-211 (yes, it wavers THAT much). I was upset, and I think I'll always be upset that I didn't get that golden number. But I did what I could. I didn't eat huge amounts of junk (hey, we all have our moments...) and I made it a habit to go to the gym (even on the last day of school.^_~ ). I'll just have to keep going and be happy with the body I was able to achieve. (I think I lost 40 pounds this year in total. That's pretty nifty!)
Let's give it that last try!
P.S. I'll be setting up the Japanese travel blog about...a week before I go, and I'll just leave the link in one of the post, so look sharp!
Monday, December 13, 2010
Shaking it off
Thank you all for dealing with my "I suck" post and not slapping me silly. We all have our moments, don't we?
I'm shaking it off though. I have to look at what I did do. I did lose 130+ pounds, and that's a good thing. I won't be going to Japan at 349. I can run more. I'm stronger. And (god willing) I make better choices. No, I'm not svelte, but it'll come with time. All I can do is be grateful for what I did accomplish, and enjoy the hell out of my trip, right? Hell, I bought a new jacket for it any everything. I'm not going to ruin all of my hard work and this trip because of what the scale tells me.
Sorry that posts haven't been more consistent. School has been majorly busy (I've been staying in the labs till 2AM, when they forcefully kick us out). But I have only two more classes left! Trying to get that cum lade!
Also, I will be making a second blog for Japanese travels if you're at all interested. It'll only be three months, but hey, I'm 6ft tall, black, and have an afro. I'm sure I'm gonna have some stories to tell. I just ask that you keep this blog separate. My family doesn't know I have a weight loss blog and I'd like to keep it that way. :)
Thank you! All of you! You are all super amazing!
P.S. Here's the jacket I bought. I just have to show it off because I love the zipper! Jacket
There was a sale. XD I couldn't resist.
I'm shaking it off though. I have to look at what I did do. I did lose 130+ pounds, and that's a good thing. I won't be going to Japan at 349. I can run more. I'm stronger. And (god willing) I make better choices. No, I'm not svelte, but it'll come with time. All I can do is be grateful for what I did accomplish, and enjoy the hell out of my trip, right? Hell, I bought a new jacket for it any everything. I'm not going to ruin all of my hard work and this trip because of what the scale tells me.
Sorry that posts haven't been more consistent. School has been majorly busy (I've been staying in the labs till 2AM, when they forcefully kick us out). But I have only two more classes left! Trying to get that cum lade!
Also, I will be making a second blog for Japanese travels if you're at all interested. It'll only be three months, but hey, I'm 6ft tall, black, and have an afro. I'm sure I'm gonna have some stories to tell. I just ask that you keep this blog separate. My family doesn't know I have a weight loss blog and I'd like to keep it that way. :)
Thank you! All of you! You are all super amazing!
P.S. Here's the jacket I bought. I just have to show it off because I love the zipper! Jacket
There was a sale. XD I couldn't resist.
Friday, December 3, 2010
I have been defeated.
I've been defeated.
Knocked out.
K.O.
Fatality.
Whatever you want to call it, I lost. I started this all with the goal of going to Japan with an alright weight and I have been utterly crushed my defeat. I am still over 200 pounds (211) and I'm still a large size (14/16).
I am hurt.
I am disappointed.
I really put my all into this and I just feel...down. Empty. A very "what's the point" kind of cloud is hanging over my head. I only work out because I know, without a doubt, that I will gain the moment I stop trying, which will only make the situation all that worse.
349 to 211...So close, but just couldn't make it. So many plateaus, and slip ups, lazy days, and sick days. I am just so upset with myself. I want a cookie...That won't make it feel better, but in the now, I'll at least have something sweet to nibble on while I wallow in my self made misery (isn't this dramatic? Lol).
Let's just hope that this was enough to make my dream trip to Japan a good experience.
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