Unexpected Surpise + Blog

Side note: Guess who got all A's and on B? This chick. Cum Lade, here I come.

Well, I had something happen that showed me I have indeed lose weight. I have a messenger bag that I have just happened to not of worn around since Highschool (probably because it was full of junk). So, I decided to slip the bad boy on and noticed that it was too long. I was confused, because my first thought was, "...did I shrink..." Then it hit me: My strap seemed longer because my stomach was no longer in the way. My stomach's not poking out as far as it used to, so the strap seems longer. I was tickled.

This week has been "okay." I was alone for the holidays, but I did go out to see friends. There has been food (I ordered my first pizza. Did you know that a slice of sausage pizza from Papa Johns is 340 calories? Cause I didn't. Imagine the look on my face when I had two slices). I managed to work out. I did running up the stairs twice because I. Got. Bored. The gym at the apartment isn't the best. There's only one treadmill and a 30 minute time limit, the elliptical is gross and rusty, and there's only one working bike. The stairs seemed better. (And I was T.I.R.E.D.)

Also, I have officially set up my Japan travel blog. Only rule is to keep this blog and that blog separate. :) I don't want my family members trickling into here. I like keeping this sort of "private."

Link: http://japanspring2011.blogspot.com/

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday!

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My last weigh-in before Japan

Today was it! My last weigh in with my school's help. I weighed in at 209! I was happy. That makes it 140 pounds lost so far. I think it's a good send off, don't you think?

I don't have a scale at home, and I don't know where the scales will be (if any) in Japan. I know they exist in Japan, but I certainly won't be buying on if one isn't provided. Because of that, any updates on this blog will be about trying to continue working out and food. Hope that's okay!

And it's over~

It's all done!
My first semester of junior is done. And three more weeks till my trip. Feels like it's been forever. Is it okay to say I'm excited? After all the paper work and drama (believe me, there was drama), I'm happy that, well...I'm going! To Japan, four months. I've been dreaming about this F-O-R-E-V-E-R. Fat or not, I'm excited!

However! I still need to try and lose some weight. It doesn't stop in Japan after all. I'm been staggering and tripping up, and for at least these last few weeks, I have to take it seriously. I mean, I have been taking it seriously, but I have to put in that last effort before I get on that plane.

I am happy though. I'm really happy that I am not going there at 349. I feel like I would be so much more self conscious than I already am (about height mostly. lol). Though I didn't meet my goal, 130+ is a lot. I'm pretty sure that's the size of one of my friends, and I'm happy to have her off my back.

I've been embarrassed that I've been teetering between the same weight since now and August, I'll admit. I left got on the plane 211, got of the plane at 220, and I'm typing now around 214-211 (yes, it wavers THAT much). I was upset, and I think I'll always be upset that I didn't get that golden number. But I did what I could. I didn't eat huge amounts of junk (hey, we all have our moments...) and I made it a habit to go to the gym (even on the last day of school.^_~ ). I'll just have to keep going and be happy with the body I was able to achieve. (I think I lost 40 pounds this year in total. That's pretty nifty!)


Let's give it that last try!

P.S. I'll be setting up the Japanese travel blog about...a week before I go, and I'll just leave the link in one of the post, so look sharp!

Shaking it off

Thank you all for dealing with my "I suck" post and not slapping me silly. We all have our moments, don't we?

I'm shaking it off though. I have to look at what I did do. I did lose 130+ pounds, and that's a good thing. I won't be going to Japan at 349. I can run more. I'm stronger. And (god willing) I make better choices. No, I'm not svelte, but it'll come with time. All I can do is be grateful for what I did accomplish, and enjoy the hell out of my trip, right? Hell, I bought a new jacket for it any everything. I'm not going to ruin all of my hard work and this trip because of what the scale tells me.

Sorry that posts haven't been more consistent. School has been majorly busy (I've been staying in the labs till 2AM, when they forcefully kick us out). But I have only two more classes left! Trying to get that cum lade!

Also, I will be making a second blog for Japanese travels if you're at all interested. It'll only be three months, but hey, I'm 6ft tall, black, and have an afro. I'm sure I'm gonna have some stories to tell. I just ask that you keep this blog separate. My family doesn't know I have a weight loss blog and I'd like to keep it that way. :)

Thank you! All of you! You are all super amazing!

P.S. Here's the jacket I bought. I just have to show it off because I love the zipper! Jacket
There was a sale. XD I couldn't resist.

I have been defeated.

I've been defeated.

Knocked out.

K.O.

Fatality.

Whatever you want to call it, I lost. I started this all with the goal of going to Japan with an alright weight and I have been utterly crushed my defeat. I am still over 200 pounds (211) and I'm still a large size (14/16).

I am hurt.

I am disappointed.

I really put my all into this and I just feel...down. Empty. A very "what's the point" kind of cloud is hanging over my head. I only work out because I know, without a doubt, that I will gain the moment I stop trying, which will only make the situation all that worse.

349 to 211...So close, but just couldn't make it. So many plateaus, and slip ups, lazy days, and sick days. I am just so upset with myself. I want a cookie...That won't make it feel better, but in the now, I'll at least have something sweet to nibble on while I wallow in my self made misery (isn't this dramatic? Lol).

Let's just hope that this was enough to make my dream trip to Japan a good experience.