I feel like I have just been going further and further back. I'm at 237. Just touching being less than 100 pounds lost. I mean, I used to be a 209. How did I get this way? My grandmother is suggesting weight loss surgery again and I just feel like I'm going further and further back until I'll wake up back at the start.
My pants are getting tight, bulges are making reappearances. I just feel so gross and so...weak. Why can everyone else seem to do it and I can't? I'm working out six days a week, I count my calories. Yeah, I may make a mistake be...50 calories, but not enough to make me gain so much weight.
These days I just think about it and cry. I'm so embarrassed. When I started this blog, I felt proud and I wanted to share with people, but now I just want to curl up and vanish.
