Sorry. I've been busy, very busy. School work came in a flood, as well as setting up the visa for Japan next semester.
...Also a lot of eating.
I've been at 214 for about three weeks now just because of eating. I've fallen into the cycle of "oh, I've have a really bad day, a piece of candy/smoothie/chip/ice cream/soda/ crap I shouldn't have" won't be so bad. I'm trying to get myself back on track though. I have 14 pounds to be below 200, and it would be great if I could go to japan at that weight. Just have to stay ficused I suppose.
I have been going to the gym if that means anything. Well, it does. It's helped me balance instead of gaining a crazy amount. I just really need to get myself together. I'm old now (20), so I should at least be able to feed myself properly.
I feel so guilty, like I'm letting someone (besides myself) down. Whenever someone pays me a comment, I feel like I should say, "No, no, don't say anything. I'm not done yet, and have been eating horribly. Please don't say anything." Ugh. And this is going on my second year and I'm dissappointed in myself. I saw a woman today who lost 200 pounds in 13 months, and I know of another woman who has lost 170-ish pounds in about...17-18 months. I feel like I am just so slow. I just want it to move faster...
In less depressing news, a friend in class is going to help me get my knitting game together. :3 I've made a small cat and scarves in the past, but I plan to bug her to do some major knitting! I hope to learn enough so I have projects for that long, 16 hour flight to the land of the rising sun.
