I'm around, I swear.

Yup, I'm around. My weight's been the same, but I'm really going to get myself into gear. I'm going to start running a lot more regularly (I've done it two days in a row!), and I'm going to stop with the pastry with lunch and the extra soda/juice (which I didn't even drink while I was in the states, but now I can't get enough?).

I got myself some gum to fight off the "sweet" cravings between meals. And I've restricted myself to tea instead of juice or soda, and of course I have water. I have to get back into the swing of things again. I would like to return under 200 pounds by the time I return home. Wouldn't that be nice?

P.S. I bought my first dress. : x
I have to say that I'm kind of pleased that I can even wear japanese clothing, let alone buy things that fit.

I think I've been binging.

I ate cookies until I got ill, sick to my stomach. Just by myself, in my room, getting up over and over again to eat packet after packet of cookies (and a kitkat I managed to get change for).

I'm disappointed of course. I'm not hungry, I'm just being greedy, eating and eating. I've been eating a lot since I've gotten here (not to the point of being ill, but quite a bit of junk). I need to get my self control back. I feel like I'm in vacation mode. "Oh, some chocolate here and there isn't a bad thing. I'll only be here a short time, I want to try it." It's not like that. I'm going to be here for three more months. That's plenty of time to try things in moderation without eating to the point that I'm feeling ill, long after I've gotten a taste for whatever I've been craving.

I just gotta get back into gear. I have a goal after all.