Ran for 30 minutes and got all teary eyed.

Long time no see!

I have been a busy, busy girl these days. Haven't had much time for anything but school work, but I'm getting there. Did want to drop in and say hi. :)

The mini plateau is seemingly over, but I won't say anything until next weak. At 214 now. 14 pounds to go till this Japan goal of mine (Being under 200). I'm about to get older you guys! Next week, the 20th, I'm turning 20! Oh god,there goes the teens. Might as well start making my coffin (lol).

P.S. Miss Haneefa, how was your surgery?

Well, if you're wondering about the title, after getting weighed in today, I went to the gym thinking I'd "push" myself on my cool down Friday (A relaxing work out, no stress and all). I started running at 4.5 MPH at about 5 minutes, and ended at 35 minutes as 5.5. MPH.

I got teary eyed. =_=

Now anything obnoxious, I wasn't crying on the treadmill, but I did get a bit misty. I know you're all thinking, "...Is she on her period? What the hell is she crying for?" Well, in highschool, twice a year we had a mile run. Now, me being as big as I was and a sports hater (as I still am), this obviously wasn't the best part of the year for me. I was always last, I always had the slowest time. I was either pitied (aww, the fat girl's trying so hard!) or just mocked. I usually made jokes at my own expense to get me though it. Didn't work.

Anyways, flash forward to today, I felt that I would of totally destroyed the milerun if it happened today! I can run for 30 minutes...30 minutes! I don't know if this is going to become an everyday thing because I got stomach cramps right after, but that fact is that I can do it, it can be done. I never imagined that it was possible for me because of my tainted history with running. So I got teary eyed. I guess I was proud of myself. I got this way once when I was in the -90lbs area and got overwhelmed with what was going on (in the middle of crunches no less).

I want to hold on to these feelings for those hard days. :)

Also, when I was walking to school, I found a girl's ID on the ground and went to send it to the lost and found. I ended up bumping into her on the way and returned it to her. She said thanks and also said that she and the other girls on the basketball team (Seems she's a member) think that I look great and have been talking about my weight loss (she made sure to say in a good way, how sweet!). I was all tongue tied but managed to say thank you very much and so forth. Since I go to the same gym everyday for almost two years now (and most of the same people are there) I'm easy to "watch." The girl who scans cards also said that I looked great, and some people in offices that I haven't seen in awhile.

Makes me feel self conscious, yes, but also pleased that it's working. :)

A nice video for those who fear being "alone!" : Video
When I have more money, I'm taking myself out to dinner!

Photo Update

I know there hasn't been much change, but I just wanted to get it out there. I'm ill at the moment, so just ignore anything but the size. Bottom one is the ,most recent.






















I look the same. I'll keep on moving though. I'm sick (and I eat A LOT when I'm sick), so I gained two pounds. The nurse isn't worried and I'm too sick to care, so...yeah. See you all next week.

Oh, a weight loss reflection comparison: