Freatured on Calorie Count

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I'm a "success story!" :D
I don't know, I was excited. When I started out I used to read these all the time and now I have one. How fun is that?

That is all for now. Hope everyone's doing well!

Still at 208, but pleased

If I could just lost eight pounds while I'm here and get under 200, I'd be a happy girl.
I took MissHaneefa's advice and around 9 at night I went and got myself some apples and strawberries. My body was quite thankful and so was I. It was so good!

I weighed this morning and I'm still at 208, which is fine with me. My habits haven't been so god, and working out hasn't been consistent because of school, but I'm working hard to change that. I've been running outside and though it's a bit embarrassing for me, I'll make sure to get the job done.

My back pains are awful though.

I tried to go out running this morning and I as done by my second lap because of the back pains. They just cripple me.

Sigh.
Even when I work out I have pains!

I need to SLOW DOWN

I have been going to town on all this food. Tempura yams (a.k.a DEEP FRIED). Chocolate is all over the place. Crepe stations in the shopping distract, really, really good pastries. I'm assuming it's all the biking that keeps the japanese thin, because I could gain a boat load of weight in this country. Yeah, I've been eating veggies, but the price of fruit is off putting. I eat stir fried meat and it is good...so good that I have to reign in those portion sizes. I have to stop myself from eating so much!

I did make a running route. I haven't been able to be consistent about it as of yet, but I'm trying to kick myself into gear. I did manage to weigh in at 208, but this isn't a holiday, I'm going to be in this country for 4 MONTHS. I. have. to. calm. down.

But the food here is just so good. I don't wanna start binging on tempura yams!

Been Busy, but not dead.

Obviously, been a bit busy with Japan and all (the blog is totally up and running. :D). I haven't been able to use calorie count because 90% of the time I don't know what the food I'm eating is actually called. But! Everything in this country has calories on it. On the menus, on the packaging, everywhere. You can't hide from it. So I've been doing it the old school way of just keeping a spread sheet.

I'm trying to get a running route and I ran it once, but I've been so busy that I haven't been able to do much but eat. Next week should be more stable.

Hope everyone is doing well!

H&M response

I was tired last night and just wanted to share the news, but I actually wanted to make a post. :)

I'm all about following the scale. I'm not focusing on weight lifting like I should, so I'm not gaining any real muscle, so I have no reason not to trust the scale when tracking my progress. However. I have just gotten below 211 (at 209 now) and I was at this point a few months ago in the summer. However, my size was still able to change.

During the summer, I wore an 18/19 or 17/16 (juniors) and, while not cutting off circulation, they were snug. Now I can fit my leg and my arm in the pants leg of a 17/16. I just bought a 15/16 and they fit fine, and I can wear a 14 in regular women's stores. Even though I've gained and then went back to my original weight, I was able to lose some sizes.

I was able to go into stores yesterday and buy things. I went to a store and was able to buy an XL shirt without thinking about it(I had previously bought from the store, so I knew my size). When I went into H&M, I was just looking around with my mom. She asked me to try on this sweater (turned out to be mega ugly) and I took in a shirt I was curious about. The highest they had in the store was a size twelve.

My hands were shaking!

When I try on clothes, I still get the shakes and my heart starts to race, because all I can think about is the clothes not fitting and me having to come out with that nervous smiled saying "...it doesn't fit" or lying and saying that it "didn't look right." Just the thought of me going, "...still have so far to go" makes me stomach turn.

But it fit.

And it wasn't a "...don't breathe...don't move..." sort of fit. It fit. At the H&M store, I can go in and buy a size 12.

Now, I can't go a buy a size twelve in many other stores, because sizing varies from place to place, but...I can go in those stores. I can go in those stores. I used to just glance at them 140 pounds ago, but I can actually go in, flip through the rack and buy something. It might be a 12 one day, a 14 the next, and a 16 the day after, but I can go into those stores.

I'm happy, because I've been able to see changes, even though the scale was barely moving. It's weird, because I've always said I wanted to be a size 10/12 and, for at least that store, it's here. I am that size.

I'm not stopping yet. I still want to get out of the 200's and at a minimum a healthy BMI (that would be in the 180's for me). That's something that excites me. Can I say that I feel sort of...Normal? Happy?

I don't feel defeated anymore. I'm going to Japan with my head held high. I may not be their size, but I worked hard to get where I am and I'm damn proud of it.

That is all. :)

I went to H&M today.

I went to H&M today and tried on a size 12.
It fit.
I bought the shirt.

That is all.