Taking a break from Insanity

I'm taking an INSANITY break. And it's not because I'm lazy or making excuses, Mr. Shaun T.

Tomorrow, I'm breaking in my mom's new pool. I haven't swam in YEARS (I don't even have a swim suit that fits, not that I care), so I will be in that pool for a long, long time. That counts as a work out in my book. Second, I'm going back home this week, on Wednesday, and moving into my own apartment ( Excited. ). I have to pack, help my mother pack, and get my stuff together. I will be busy.

And, quite frankly, I'm getting a bit tired of it. I mean, really, just plain upset with it. Having hissy fits when I had to do it, not wanting to do the warm up. I'll quit if I have to force myself to do it and then feel bad as soon as it's over for not doing a "real" job. I'd rather take a break and come back fresh then half a$$ two days this week, take a break, and all that jazz. Seems like a waste and unneeded torture. I'll start back up next week when everything is settled, no doubt about it, but I think I'd like a week to goof around in the pool, get my apartment in order, and just do some normal mindless exercise before I force Insanity back on myself.

Seriously people, do what you love and what makes you feel good. I still dream of finding that perfect work out. *sigh* Someday soon.

Oh, found out I'm a size 14 today. Go figure. Lose a little more weight and I won't be able to shop at the Layne Bryant anymore for my lady pants.

Lady Pants: A term I use for "adult," "Grown up" pants, mostly called slacks, that I wear once or twice a year for presentations that I have to do at school when jeans are not allowed.

Lost "just" a pound

Why am I always so disappointed when I lose "only" a pound? A pound is a good thing, isn't it? Some people would pray for a pound I'm sure, and if it was a pound in another way, I would be freaking out, so how come a pound in the right direction doesn't have the opposite effect? One of happiness and joy and what not? It's always an, "...Oh...okay...at least its lower" kind of response. If it was -2, I'd over joyed. Hell, anyone over two and this post would be in all caps. Seriously, all caps.

This is also officially my last week with my mother. I go back home Wednesday. I wanted to come back under 200, but it seems 211 is what I'll be going back as, maybe 210 when I actually get back to school. I started around 232, so...21 pounds isn't bad for the summer...right? Not going to lie, I'm disappointed, and a little embarrassed. :( I get weighed at my health center, so I feel like I'm going to come back with "failure" stamped on my forehead.

Sigh.

Weight loss just isn't a perfect science.

INSANITY Day 20: Plyo Cardio Circuit

Day 20: Plyo Cardio Circuit

Ah, the end of the week. Needed it because I was done with insanity. D.O.N.E. Come back to me Sunday. :D

The suicides make my back hurt. :/ I'm 19, it's not exactly nice to feel all these aches and pains (like my knees that sound like potato chips). Along with stretchmarks and skin, these will probably always be my reminders for what I've done to myself. *sigh* At least I started now, right?

I made dinner two days in a row all by myself. :D Tonight was steak~ I'm a beef freak, so I was happy. Next week, I'm moving into my own apartment. :0 So I'll be cooking by myself forever more. Won't that be exciting?

Day 20/ 40 days to go

INSANITY Day 19. Cardio Power & Resistance

Day 19: Cardio Power & Reisitance

I think I figured out why I'm kind of "ugh" about Insanity! I started it because I didn't want to go to the gym, but after a week and a half, I had to go for at least 30 minutes to get the weight a shiftin'. So a part of me is like, "Um...this is insane...but I'm not really losing without regular old running." And also...I'm not seeing any changes. ._. This is getting to the end of week three, almost to week four...How can I post a before and after if I don't have an after, ya know? No lost inches, just lost the two pounds...Maybe it's because my body's still covered in a nice layer of fat that I can't see anything?

Oh well, just gotta see it through to the end.

The iced tea was alright. Might try a different flavor. I'll keep trying. :)

Also, I missed my little bench mark. D: I was "following" a woman to lost 175 pounds in 16 months, can you believe it? I was on track for awhile, but with plateaus here and there, I'm...I'm at month 17! Only 137, how unfair! Maybe I'll finish before next April? Fingers crossed I don't leave Japan with weight to lose!

Day 19/41 to go

INSANITY Day 18: Cardio Recovery

Day 18: Cardio Recovery

A nice, slow day. The running was easier because the day was relaxed and slow. Felt like it took a long time. Not excited about tomorrow because I'm just feeling lazy.

Oh well.

I'm trying to figure out what's wrong with Sobe Life water zero. Says there's no artificial sweeteners...I don't believe them. I'll have to keep searching. I'm making my first batch of iced tea tonight. Wish me luck.

Day 18/42 Days to go

INSANITY Day 17: Pure Cardio & Cardio ABS

Day 17: Pure Cardio & Cardio ABS

I hate this day the most because it had two sections. :( No fair, I say, no fair! When I was done, I was truly starving, but the pantry is pretty empty. I had a frozen dinner and just dealt with it.

I started my no soda policy and now I'm watching soda commercials like they're porn. :/ I need to find a good replacement, stat.

Day 17/ 43 Days to go

INSANITY Day 16: Cardio Circuit

Day 16: Cardio Circuit

Well, the second day of week three and the "newness" of INSANITY has certainly worn off. I woke up this morning and had as close to a temper tantrum I can have at 19, because I just didn't want to do it. For the first rotation of the work out, I was just going through the motions, because my body didn't want to move and neither did I. :(

I got through it though, all 40 or so minutes, and I'll get up and do it tomorrow, and the next day...and the next day...Till I get to the end. I probably will never do this again afterwards. I'm not sure why, but the power to "dig deeper" left me in woosh. Maybe it'll come back in the next few days? Maybe it's not INSANITY? I'm not exactly "thrilled" to get up and go to the gym either.

I wish I could find some activity that doesn't make me want to pull my teeth out after a few weeks. That's my wish...I just gotta find out what that is.

Day 16/ 44 Days to go

INSANITY Day 15: Fit Test

Day 15: Fit Test

Back to the old fit test. I tried to push myself to at least go above whatever I had.

The first and most resent results:

Switch Kicks: 80 / 90

Power Jacks: 30 / 39

Power Knees: 70 / 87

Power Jumps: 17 / 27

Globe Jumps: 6 / 9

Suicide Jumps: 7 / 10

Push-Up Jacks: 16 / 25

Low Plank Oblique: 29 / 39

I think that's a pretty good improvement, don't you? Now I'm going to sit and try to get the energy to go to the gym. Gotta lose that weight!

I'm also starting my no soda policy. I usually drink 2-3 diet sodas a days (one with lunch, one with dinner, and maybe one with a salty snack), but I've been reading all these comments about aspartame that I either said I was going to drink the real stuff, or nothing at all, and since I don't like drinking my calories, it seems water and sweetened teas (with maybe stevia) is what I'll be drinking.

I do like flavored beverages every once in awhile, so if anyone has any recipes to slightly sweeten water, let me know!

Day 15 / 45 days to go