Long Time No See. <3

Well, it's been a LONG time since my last post, and even longer since Freshmen Anna. :( I'm busy, she's busy...Being an animation student isn't as fun as it sounds. ...Well, it is, but it's a lot of work. Lots of drawing and redrawing, and editing and stuff. Not a lot of time to type, barely time to work out. Anyway, enough about that.

Here's the update.

I just got into the 250's, so I'm now at 259, making my pounds lost to date 90. It was a big relief, since I was shifting between 266 & 264 for the longest time and, no lie, I was ready to call it quits. However, the kind, awesome, lovely people of Calorie Count helped me make sense of it all and realize this wasn't the end of the play, just an intermission. I'm a less than 50% into this journey and still have 96/97 pounds left to lose. But if I can do it once, I can do it again, right? Of course.

Freshmen Anna is dealing with some weight issues herself, at least, from the last time I spoke with her. A lot of ups and downs, but, not being in her direct presence and only chatting online from time to time, it's all on her at this point. :( The last time she logged into CC was Oct. 13th, so I'm not 100% sure what's exactly she's been doing. I wont' share her weight since I believe it's her choice if she wants to expose that. I'm only sharing this because I feel it's important for people to hear more "bump in the road" stories than just the straight, blinding success of TBL (The Biggest Loser) like stories and dropping massive weight in ten minutes.

Speaking TBL, Oh. My. God. I love it so much. I love watching that show. I watch it while i eat ice cream. <3 This is the last week I think. I don't really have a favorite this season, but that hasn't stopped me from watching. Bringing this all up because this Wednesday is a "Where are they now?" episode which I am going to be watching. They rarely talk about who fell back into routine (unless it's a side story or... on Oprah), but I think Bob is going to some houses and going to start helping them take responsiblity for it all.

...Deep down, I just want to see who messed up!

Well, I hope to be into the 240's by the end of this year. That will bring me to a 100 pounds lost and I'll be very much happy. <3 Next year...Well, I'm hoping to get to that 160 finish line or damn near close!

Love & Peace

Gabby

AHHHHHHH!

Warning: This is nothing by a rant

I go get weighed in this morning and...264...Really...Really!? Last week, I was 266, so this might be a little confusing to some, but the week before that, I was 264. When I went to 266, I tried to tell myself that it was that I was weight lifting, that is was my period, and that it would go away again...It's not leaving. OH. MY. GOD. This new personal trainer is leaving me tired and breathless and I don't even get a pound for it? ONE POUND? THIS IS SO ANNOYING!

They started doing measurements and it is making it SO much worse. They're all over the place (the numbers, no the people) and I'm up one week, down the other, and it's frustrating and a little depressing. No more! I'm going to ask them to just stop it, because I nearly left in tears today. Since Arizona, weight has not been going my way at all. It's NOVEMBER. I just want to hit 100. Is that really too much to ask?

I'll admit something, I may not be eating enough (no, it's not 1200). I eat around 2300, because the nutritionist doesn't see any reason for me to go up, even though this site and the child's site say other wise, but I just feel weird having to show her a close to 2800 calorie intake (My workouts last about an hour, maybe hour and a half).

I just don't want to be obese in Japan. Spring 2011...Ugh. I'm so not motivated (did my workout, but it was torture).

In sadder news, my friend's mother passed away last week, so this just isn't a good time for anyone. I'll be keeping her in my thoughts, I hope you all do the same.

Love & Peace

Gabby

Well...I'm Tired To Say The Least

I got my first work out with the personal trainer...and she totally kicked my butt (in a nice way). She was really nice and chatty and such, and by...I don't know, 30 minutes into it, I was ready to call it quits (not that I could. :P ). It was fun though. Much more fun than just the treadmill and stuff. And I felt silly doing a lot of things, but other people were doing "silly" things too.

Also, I was able to ask about saggy skin (my main concern at this point), and she said that, if saggy skin was really going to be a problem, I would of noticed it by now. And, well, I haven't, so I'm very relieved. <3

Yay for personal trainers.

Love & Peace

Gabby

High School...You Were A Jerk

While running on the treadmill today, I had a few thoughts about my highschool's fitness program, or lack there of, for overweight children.

Now, I'm sure you're wondering why, after two years out of high school, I give a rat's ass, but I can hold a major grudge~

Anyways, highschool sucked. Gym wise anyway. It was like...they had never dealt with someone overweight. We were all weighed, and had to tell our weight to ANOTHER STUDENT to write down. Not a teacher, another immature highschooler. Who would know, who could tell, who could text, whatever. We had to run in the beginning of every gym, no biggy, however, when I couldn't run for five minutes, I was scolded and ostracized. Yelled at from across the gym about how slow I was.

I bring all this up, because, with the letters home saying I was fat (because my mom totally didn't notice), the "fitness tests" (Running as much as you could for a certain time (I was never last, but it was done in the open, so...it was embarrassing), push ups (I couldn't do 1, so that was sad) and sit ups (I COULD DO THEM ALL! SUCK IT SKINNY BITCHES) ), and public weighing, surprisingly, none of that motivated me to lose weight (the normal way at least).

High schools (Or, my highschool) need to know that being jerks to overweight people doesn't help...Like, at all. At least for me it didn't. I don't think anyone can lose weight until they're ready for it, not being embarrassed day in and day out about it, especially, if they're an emotional eater (I myself am a grazer). And thinking back on how terrible my school did at just...making themselves available, I think it would of been a much better experience, and much easier for people to ask for help in the first place. The reason I was able to ask my school's health center for help was because they didn't treat me like a monster, they didn't make me feel bad for what I couldn't do, and they helped and informed me without be patronizing.

High schoolers can be fat! But...really, did we need to be embarrassed? Maybe because all of our teachers were skinny and fit and perfect, they assumed that that was the norm. How sad.

Love & Peace

Gabby

Happy Brithday To Me

Turning the big 1-9 today. And I lost two pounds. :)

Well, I'm going totally crazy today with food. I had a muffin (or breakfast cake) and coco for breakfast. Having pizza and candy for lunch, my favorite type of fish, potatoes and cabbage for dinner, and a nice piece of cake for dessert. :D

I logged everything in, and it's only 1900-ish calories, not that I would of cared. It's my birthday, so if it was 3500+, that would of been my count. ^^

Yay Birthdays.

I think I lost an inch on my hips, and like...three on my thigh. Which is good, but I really wanted some more hip action. And a bit more waist. Oh well. It'll come.

Love & Peace

Gabby

-2!

Yay. I'm out of the 270 death zone and I'm sitting cozy at 267 (for this week at least). I got measurements now. :D

Waist: 40.5

Arm: 14 (ish)

Thigh: 27

Hips: 50 something....maybe 56? 57? I don't know, I didn't write it down.

I was fully dressed, so it might be off by half an inch at the most. XD I don't know how bad it is, but Freshmen Anna said I'm five inches away from a healthy waist measurement, so that's good news to me. :D

Now the next hurdle: Midterms

THEY'RE GOING DOWN!!!!!

Love & Peace

Gabby

What...What is that?

It's leg muscle!
I have a calf muscle! Well, I've always had one, but I can really see the little sucker now. Haha! That was sweet~

I'm sick, and haven't been able to work out for four days, but I've got a leg muscle! Makes it all worth it~

Love & Peace

Gabby

Well, This Sucks

I. Am. Mad.

So, first, I’m in a generally bad mood (I’m blaming my period) and I don’t want to do ANYTHING, but I do it. Then I get sick, so I can only work out for about 40 minutes before my throat starts to burn. Today? What happens today!? I have a damn back spasm! I mean, what the heck!? I’m running for about…5, 6 minutes. I’m just happy I can breathe, let alone run, and all of the sudden, it creeps up. I think, “It might just be cramps, I’ll keep going.” Well, it wasn’t cramps. <.<

Monday: Worked out for 1hr/30min. Felt great.

Tuesday: Tennis 50min – I don’t even think this counts. My partner, though a sweetie, can’t play very well at all, so it’s mostly running back and forth to get balls, no rally at all.

Wednesday: Sick, so 40 minutes on one of the spin bikes. Didn’t feel like much…I was sweating, but I’m used to soaking through shirts, not a damp forehead.

Thursday: Five minutes.

I’ve only had one work out day! Maybe I’ll get one tomorrow, and I don’t even want to see the scale next Tuesday. This sucks so bad! I work out so I can eat a lot of food, now I can’t eat (A lot). D:

This is a poo poo week. >.< Side Note: My nurse and nutritionist want to start doing measurements. I think it’s because they see how deflated I get at one pound (even though it much better than a plateau). It weird, but measurements really don’t mean crap to me. *w* I’m not trying to fit into a smaller size; I just don’t want to die…so I don’t know what they want me to do with those numbers. I just want scale numbers.

Love & Peace

Gabby